~ `` sEnbOnzAKuRa `` kUchiKi ByakUya Version 2

~*Monday, November 21, 2005*~

//Reply to Dex Post + Today

wah. i admit i dun realli like what happened today. overall was just a typical holiday. nort bad. but quite dissapointing.

woke up. wahh raining. den gort hauled to westmall wif my brothers n parents. i decided to go lah actualli. wanted to buy grip for my At700 and At800, coz both very black liao (yellow turn black...-.-). so i went. den i din even haf time 2 change properly, din even haf time to dry up. den dress up sloppily went out. unlike my 2nd bro. wear branded shirt, branded pants wif his 60 dollar billabong bag n wif stylo watch somemore. go out. n gel his hair. pls lor. goin westmall...nort goin for a date. i just anyhow took my bro adidas shirt n wear. den anyhow find one pants n wear lor.....wah......i rmb we took our uncle car 2 lot 1. den take mrt. i was freezing cold.....OMG. the coldness realli deal lots of damage to mi. my body nort dry. n the wind and the rain. i was lik goin to die. OMG.

den finally gort on the mrt. den went there. walk around. do nothing. nothing much bah. den i started to feel very bored after patronising comics connection, sports link and royal sporting house and popular. den my mother still wan 2 go shop n safe...all these dulan place. n i went alone eat liao dey haven eat. den at 12. i ask her " how long more?? ". she said 1-2 hours. i was like -.- diao. so long. waste my time. den i took taxi home. i paid wif my own money. *burned hole*. omg.

den went home. played abit dota. den weizhong n zhongshun sae wan come my hse. they were at dex hse play pingpong. so ok lor. den i said " dis ish my hse, my com. dun expect 2 come here n hog hor". dey agree so dey come. den dey watch mi plae. 2 games. den finish. den i KINDLY let wz plae 1 game. after that around 6:30 liao. wah wad a burned afternoon.

den before goin, we played a VERY fun game. it's called POKE the ANGRY orge. wahhha fun. FUN FUN FUN. not goin to go into detail. its a very cute n very lame game. but fun still. i enjoyed it alot. n best is one game last less than 5 min. woo. perfect for rotation. >_<

so dey went home. so mi wr n dex played some other custom games.

enfo. i din realli like it. like so.......lame. like hero defense? nrt farni lor. i gort kai the theif, den can steal gold. wahhaha so fun. but noob, i dun realli intend to plae it another time bahx.

den tree tag. wahhahah another lame one. but i think if u noe how to plae it will be fun. end up, i die to e stupid inferno so mani time. den when pple gort base i onli one dulan tree everytime revive den die. wah sian leh. -.-

okie den nothing much. played 1 game of Dark Deeds den come bac. here n post blog. oh yah in e afternoon i played abit world editor. so this is how i spent today. lame right.

ok. so this is my reply 2 dex post.
he is obv wz...so for convinience sake, lemme post it my way. k?

according 2 u...wz hang out wif outside clan members when given a choice. he wud not choose clan members. first one reason is becoz u all gif him cold shoulder. lemme tell u in the first place when everything was neutral, wr din like wz. i oso dunno why. i think wp is neutral bahx but according to my judgement now is towards dislike and is quite negative liao. tj, granted, is wz's better frens, and u also. but me, right now i carn state my stand. i admit im getting quite annoyed by his behaviour. glenn im not sure. long time din interact with him. but lets assume he'll be neutral passive (damn i plae too much world edit liao).

so, i guess wz finding outside frens is quite possible. i mean natural. im not siding wif him now. as in. if you're in the clan, where some pple gif you cold shoulder. wud you feel like you're in the clan? nope. i dun think i will also. wz is NOT having the best of both worlds by interacting with both clan's people. (assuming, zs,gx etc r one clan also). in other words, you will be forced to be a mercenary if you are hated by some of your own countries pple. natural isn't it.

but the problem is, wz doesn't see the need to foster gd relationships in the clan itself. i believe his on better terms wif zs and gx than wr and wp. me and u are too. coz we're in the class. wr and wp are not. so it's natural again. but the question is...why does wz alway like to avoid wr and wp.

one clan has a imaginary line in between. unless this line can be destroyed, our clan will NEVER be one. it will always seem to be one, seem to be blissful, but have internal conflicts that are internal. meaning, cold wars etc. you realize everytime theres a event, me and you are the main guys. because we are on good terms with wz, as well as wp and wr. in other words, we're sitting on the line, in the possible fault line in our clan relationship..

so now, do you wan wz to severe all ties wif zs, gx etc..? seriously. and i realli mean SERIOUSLY. i dun realli fancy the company of gx and zs. when im wif them, i dun feel like i can understand them. i dun feel like i can interact naturally, or at least to the same level of our other clan members. but i believe wz can. at least naturally. in wz's eyes, probably the clan is part of him, not him being part of the clan.

in other words, he sees the clan as " somethin i join ", not " something im part of ".

when wr and wp suggested boycott. his first reaction was "so? boycott lor". i was abit pissed wif the response. what does he meant? if one day we ignore him COMPLETELY. will he find other friends and ignore us completely. if that is realli what will happen. i suggest. i suggest that we do it to test out what will happen. its the attitude thing here. he sees himself as being a gem dat our clan cannot lose, especially in dota.

since wr carn plae in our future lan shop games, i think wz will be essential. so we carn afford to kick him out. and seriously, i dun think wz is FAR more pro den me n you (refering to dex). everyone has ups and downs. and his style is probably more stable. today i noticed how he play. his style allows him to stay consistent. and not die so much. it's the selfish way of dota. i can admit that his proer as of now......, but just give me like 1 week n i will be able to catch up. but wait, how do i catch up?

this question leads to another question. why is he more pro? i dun get it. personally. i think me, u n wz are of about the same standard. standard will fluctuate when every player is faced with a different situation. we're in the same tier, and his not very far off. what makes him think that his so good. i dun get it..

i feel that wr is on a different level though. playing with him, watching him play, being on the same lane as him. i realize our standard difference. that i dun complain. and glenn, do i even haf to say anything. his the dota god. period.

but overall, i feel wz is just a "dota pro wannabe". if wr is a pro lah.

one day if we realize our team haf more then needed killers. if glenn decided to play an aggro hero, wei rong also. this will render wz useless as he has no support hero in his roster. and that is when you will be choosen. because out of we 4 (wz,me,u,wp) you'll the best supporter. and this is the reason why im working my way to playing a supporter. or at least half-supporter hero.

wz will suicide trying to be a 2nd glenn. (at least this is how i see things goin..)

quote of the day
" die fools!' sven, dota

Activated Seikei @ 9:23 PM

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