~ `` sEnbOnzAKuRa `` kUchiKi ByakUya Version 2

~*Wednesday, December 28, 2005*~

//rants

Im goin crazy wif nth to do at my hse.

Now not looking forward to anything, I feel emptiness, loneliness. and dey seem to fuse together to make the mega creep-sadness. i feel as if i have been purged of excitement. the thrill of life. nth thrills mi anymore. for some reason. life just goes on, for the sake of it. this is the plague, the disease i suffer from when it's exactly or less than 1 week before school reopens.Why am I continously rantin on the fact dat skool is goin to reopen. when i carn change it. im juz childish perhaps.

Ytd nite had a wet dream. ( i noe i shldn't be annoucing it, but this is MY blog, as long as i dun sae anythin racist, im safe k). long time din haf le. i carn rmb the contents. lol. but after i woke up i tot it was quite enjoyable. lol. seriously...i think this is e most enjoyable type of dream....

sometimes i wish to be born into a super rich family. i know right now my family is doin fine, quite above avg n stuff. but thats nort enough! nort enough for mi not to go school n not to work. realli. lemme tell u my darkest fantasy. that is the day that i dun haf to go to school, dun haf to work. just slack at home n haf all the money to spent. dats a very insane dream i wud guess.....after watchin hana yori dango. seein those family wif houses like estate-size. and with hundreds of maids,bodyguards. those tycoon family. y carn i be born into those family..? and izzit a sin to be not contented wif wad u haf?? i think if u calculate all in all, i think i wud be poorer den most of u out there cox in the end i have to share all e stuff wif 3 other pple...dats alot. all in all, i still haf to work when i grow up. yikes.

either i find a job dat im happi wif and enjoy doin, or im goin money crazy n im goin to retire by 35.

dat day at LJS mi n wz n glenn were tokin. sayin stupid stuff like "we're 16 n haven accomplish anything". badminton nort pro, dota nort so pro (even though i think we're very pro liao), n studies also nort pro. so wad..? we lik very sibai? no way. i think we r better den off den mani pple liao lor. no offense to other pple. but how mani pple can play badminton AND dota as pro as us. of cox there r mani pple proer in badminton den us. and dota as well. but when u combine both as a condition. u c how mani pple can plae both as gd as us. i think few.i think we're not pro in anythin yet cox we balance everything. we dun go hardcore in badminton or dota. even though i think we r goin quite extreme sometimes. n studies. even though i sux at sec 3. but dun forget, after o level. all e report book all these can throw away liao. end of the day, it's ur o level cert dat counts. im not goin to study for any other exam den important ones. dat is the piority i set in my life in kindergarten......n im goin to follow that.

actually lemme tell u frankly i despise mani pple dat i meet. im those type of typical arrogant bastard. and im proud to admit it. i dunno y but i haf a super big ego, pride n confidence (even though sometimes i dun seem to haf), but tthink my frens noe. u noe pple like GX,ZS,ruihe,jian hui. basically those pple from our class. i think dey all veri loser lor. i think in their whole life dey never played anythin seriously. for us, both our dota n badminton, we play them seriously. we seriously try to improve n train new strat. for them..? i dunno what they doin actually.

heard from ZS dat guoxiang play badminton to thrash pple in our school. end up. it's all for face. i DESPISE pple who play badminton not for the love of the sport. but to actually play to show off, and to thrash others. it's simply retard. it shows that the person is bein too practical and is an attention seeker. it's ok if you plae until pro den show off abit nvm, but to plae to show off its ridiculous, its insanely crazy n an insult to e sport. but end of the day. he still cannot beat sim n wz. n he has not beaten me n glenn till today...im not sayin dat hes lousy, just dat his attitude SUXS like hell.., let this kind of pple ROT in hell.no offense to ZS. but actually i think his quite a happy go lucky guy. i dun realli depise him as much as e others. but the junjie,ruihe n jian hui gang realli sux lor.

dats all.

Activated Seikei @ 10:55 AM

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